Forever in you

Written by: Candika

 

Heart breaking. Soul shaking.

No one needs to care, 

Only MY heart is bare.

 

I dream you many nights, too many nights.

I dream you are right there, I dream you really care.

 

I feel you.

I feel the depths of you, the intense love from you.

 

I reach for you. I wrap my arms around you.

I breathe you in.

 

I am touching you, embracing you.

I weave my soul into yours

I do not wonder if you love me. I know

 

It is understood; through out the ages

Through out the life’s,

We have loved. 

 

I reach out once more to embrace you

To never let go.

But you are not near.

 

I can glimpse you but I cannot touch you.

I feel your presence but can no longer hold you.

 

You slip farther and farther from me.

No longer can I see you.

 

You are all I think of.

My senses long for you, they long for the touch of you.

 

I wake up

 

I remember every longing, every ache.

I know you are near,

I want to fall back into sleep to find you.

 

I lay there begging sleep to carry me back to you

A tear forms but can not fall.

I cannot fall back into you

 

I am paralyzed

Surely I am paralyzed in a life that cannot find you

 

The savory sweet is slowly turning bitter

I want to get lost in a long savory dream with you

Just

Once

More

 

You are like an addiction I never want to give up

I tremor for you unbeknown to any

I fall asleep like a drug addict waiting for the next fix

I am left to the mercy of each dream

 

 

Why can’t I have you?

Why do the pains of desire go un-rewarded?

“I am enough” is not a phrase I want to sing

 

 

                  I am lost

 

                             Forever wanting you