Written by: Candika (Jeanie)
Heart breaking. Soul shaking.
No one needs to care,
Only MY heart is bare.
I dream you many nights, too many nights.
I dream you are right there, I dream you really care.
I feel you.
I feel the depths of you, the intense love from you.
I reach for you. I wrap my arms around you.
I breathe you in.
I am touching you, embracing you.
I weave my soul into yours
I do not wonder if you love me. I know
Through out the ages
Through out the life’s,
We have loved.
A delta wave suffocates me.
I reach out to embrace you
To never let go.
But you are not near.
I can glimpse you but I cannot touch you.
I feel your presence but can no longer hold you.
You slip farther and farther from me.
No longer can I see you.
You are all I think of.
My senses long for you, they long for the touch of you.
“I am enough” is not a phrase I want to sing
I wake up
I remember every longing, every ache.
I know you are near,
I want to fall back into sleep to find you.
I lay there begging sleep to carry me back to you
A tear forms but can not fall.
I cannot fall back into you
I am paralyzed
Surely I am paralyzed in a life that cannot find you
I want to get lost in a long savory dream with you
The savory sweet is slowly turning bitter
You are like an addiction I never want to give up
I tremor for you unbeknown to any
I fall asleep like a drug addict waiting for the next fix
Leaving only the mercy of the dust.
Why can’t I have you?
Why do the pains of desire go un-rewarded?
I am lost
Forever wanting you